Ok...so some of you know and some don't...but I've really been struggling a LOT lately. I've kind of turned into a hermit and shut myself off from the world, family, friends, pretty much everything. But I'm coming to realize that's NOT the answer!! I had hormonal and emotional issues when I was pregnant with Aysha...but they didn't start until I was 30+ weeks along. So I dealt with it. Well this time it's come at 14 weeks and isn't stopping. I've talked to friends, doctors, family, and mostly my hubby...and we're trying to get through it and work it out. For any of you who know me, know that I'm NOT a depressed, down, sad, unhappy person...well that's how I've been lately. Tired, crabby, no energy, no ambition, depressed, stressed, and everything else.
ANYWAYS...enough about that...I went to ask my bishop (leader of our church/area for those that don't know) for some help this last week, and he gave me something from a General Conference talk. He told me to read and study it, so I've taken it to heart and I have been this week. There are parts that have really hit home with me, and I wanted to share some with you guys, because we're all mommy's and all going through hard times and struggles at one time or another.
So here's the quote I wanted to share...it's a talk entitled "Because She is a Mother" by Elder Jeffrey R. Holland, in the April 1997 conference.
"I especially wish to praise and encourage young mothers. The work of a mother is hard, too often unheralded work. The young years are often those when either husband or wife-or both-may still be in school or in those earliest and leanest stages of developing the husband's bread-winning capacities. Finances fluctuate daily between low and nonexistent. The apartment is usually decorated in one of two smart designs-Deseret Industries (the goodwill out here) provincial or early Mother Hubbard. The car, if there is one, runs on smooth tires and an empty tank. But with night feedings and night teethings, often the greatest challenge of all for a young mother is simply fatigue. Through these years, mothers go longer on less sleep and give more to others with less personal renewal for themselves than any other group I know at any other time in life. It is not surprising when the shadows under their eyes sometimes vaguely resemble the state of Rhode Island.
..."Do the best you can through these years, but whatever else you do, cherish that role that is so uniquely yours and for which heaven itself sends angels to watch over you and your little ones...."
So I hope that can uplift you guys in some way and help you all realize you're not alone...I know I'm not alone, and that there are LOTS of people out there that care. We can all use a little helper once in awhile to get us through the next week!!! Hope this can help some of you in that way!!!