Ok...so no pictures with this post...just some thoughts. I just got done reading my sister-in-law's post...which really she's just more like a sister to me ;) Anyways...she was talking about being overwhelmed...and I think it's cool and interesting that when she happens to write something like that...it's exactly what I need to hear, or am feeling as well.
Being a wife and mother is a hard job. It's so worth it, don't get me wrong, but it's a LOT of work and it's tough. The last few weeks have made me think more and realize the changes that I really need to make in my life, before it's too late. I struggle, and always have, with scripture reading and saying prayers. I don't know why...I can come up with a LOT of excuses, but in the end I think I've come to realize that it's just because I'm not willing to set aside the time. How sad is that...I'm trying to work on it...and make it a habit in my life, but it's still hard. It always seems when times are tough or hard, that it's always easy and the first thing I do...but at other times I don't see the need or something. I don't know. Anyways...with the way this world is going...with my life...with my church callings...with my family...with everything, it's really important. Things are seeming to "fall apart" in a way...and a I don't like it. Ryan & I seem to be fighting more and not getting along. Most of it is me...just being stubborn and rude...and sure I could use the excuse of just having a baby and my hormones being out of whack...but Aysha will be 2 months old on Saturday...so can I really use that?? Life is just hard, and I know Satan is really working on all of us to break us down. I don't want that to happen to me or my family...so I know I need to be the one to step up.
I was just wondering if any of you would be willing to share ways that have worked for you...or what you do to make it a priority in your life...I have a testimony of it...and I know it's important...but I just struggle I guess. So let me know what you think...if you wouldn't mind...because I sure wouldn't mind being happier, more spiritual, and having more faith in my life. I don't think Ryan would complain either...or my kids!! I need to be a better wife and mother!!!
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